I’ve been feeling really weird lately. I can’t figure out what it is. Whether I’m asleep or awake I keep feeling like something is missing and I don’t know what it is. I’m constantly bored, but I don’t want to do anything. I’m constantly feeling lonely, but I keep feeling like I just want to chill out by myself. I have lots of big ideas I want to try out but I they’re gone the second I get the idea to act on them. I feel very relaxed, very spirited, like I’m ready to run a marathon… but then I just sort of feel dejected, like I’m charging into a battle that isn’t happening I want to get out of the house and do something, but I’d rather just sit here and think about it. Then I think about all of the other aforementioned things.

Call it being in a funk… in a slump… whatever.

I haven’t been sleeping well because of it. I wake up after an hour of sleep and find myself fighting to sleep until my alarm gives me the okay to stop… yet somehow I just find myself wanting to go to bed early in the night.

Whatever it is… it doesn’t feel good… or right. Like something is very, very, wrong… or about to go wrong. It’s bringing me down in a bad way. Something is missing here and I really don’t know what it is.

I keep finding little distractions here and there to sooth it a bit, but it feels like a sunburn… you know how you get burnt to hell, and you’re uncomfortable for a few days before you start feeling better. You just wish you could stay asleep for a few days while your body works things out… kinda like the emotional version of that.

The part of me that has learned from life’s little experiences will always tell me that things are gonna get worse before they start to get better, but it’s like I’m being pulled in so many directions that I don’t know where I can possibly go with this… whether it be good or bad.

So yeah. That’s what’s going on with me. Do me a favor and help distract me from it if you can. Apologies in advance if I don’t seem like the life of the party anytime soon.

I’ve done some fun things I wanted to talk about in the past couple weeks… but I’m afraid my lack of pep is going to make them sound less exciting, so maybe I’ll save talking about them for later.

See ya.